Ep 57 - Let's Keep This One (VERY) Short And Sweet

It's 10:15PM,

I am famished,
and I am not even halfway through with my In-Course Assessment Presentation for HS 1090.
Fuck.
There is nothing significant enough going through my mind that is worth
blogging about.
And now, I present to to you,
my ever-faithful readers,
the shortest post in my weblog's history.
It just struck me that I should come up with long-winded and interesting posts lest you guys start cheating on me. (AGAIN!)

Ep 56 - Our Perspectives

Why do we even bother accusing the less social among us of being stuck in their own worlds when the same applies to every single sentient being in this world? We are all living in our own self-made microcosms. Our physical entities may be present in the same place and at the same time but we lead separate lives. We may share similar life experiences but then again, our perceptions of these experiences vary. No two perceptions of the physical world are ever alike as we all have our own unique perceptions of the things we experience. We see the physical world as it is through our own eyes and the things we see are perceived by our independent minds. We lead our lives based on these perceptions which in turn, create whole new universes encased within our minds. These principles in my opinion, are the ones behind the old saying that beauty is the eye (or in that case, mind) of the beholder.

Oh yes, and I would like to wish a very Happy Birthday

to my childhood friend, Nurul Fatinah!

Ep 55 - James Cameron's Avatar

Ep 54 - Oh, Sweet Seventeen

Today, we celebrate the seventeenth year of my life. So much has changed over the past decade and the child I was back then seems almost like a stranger to me. It is time that I reflect upon how much I have changed over the past ten years.

Firstly, I have realised how uncertain my life seems to be now. When I was a seven year-old, I can recall that I was always sure of myself and I believed that I would be able to succeed in all my endeavours. All I needed to do back then, was to strive hard. The seventeen year-old I am now is always unsure of himself. I am in a constant fear that I am never good enough no matter how much I try. This sense of hopelessness has at times, resulted in my sense of apathy towards the things which truly matter in my life now.

And secondly, my cynicism has grown tenfold over past decade. The notion I have that people are driven almost solely by greed and selfishness is stronger than ever before. The belief that humanity is capable of selflessness and love seems at times, seems almost foreign to me. I am almost incapable empathising with the plights of someone unfamiliar to me. This seems rather strange as I will graduate as an Enrolled Nurse and a sense of empathy is an important aspect of my future career. I am still be capable of empathising with the plights of my patients but unfortunately, my empathy rarely goes beyond the call of duty.

And now, I celebrate the seventeenth year of my life
although I am yet to find my true purpose of existing in this strange world.
I hope to find it soon.

Ep 53 - On The Edge of Eternity's Cliff

This is the fourth and final draft for the first song I have written, entitled, "On The Edge of Eternity's Cliff". My lyrics delve into the two main themes of Black Metal, namely misanthropy and anti-Christianity. I will be celebrating my seventeenth birthday in a few days and I have reflected on how much worse humanity has become over the past decade. We are our own living abominations. Remember the Black Death which claimed 100 million lives in the 1300s? Humanity brought it upon itself. Modern Europeans take pride in their high standards of hygience and sanitation but do they even recall that the Bubonic plague resulted from the lack of the most basic standards of sanitation? In the 21st century, there is no longer a necessity to fear the unknown. Humanity should fear itself for it is bringing about it's own end. Apocalypse could very well be a man-made disaster.


We are a self-proclaimed race of sentient beings and yet, we behave in the most repulsive and animalistic ways. Throughout it's existence, humanity has set the most sensible of laws for itself and at the same time, violated every single one of these laws. Yes, humanity has set quite a significant number insensible laws only meant to imprison itself. However, humanity tends to defy the more significant of laws that are meant to protect us. We should not fear being ravaged by tropical storms or tsunamis for we are among the very worst of natural disasters.


I am open to any suggestions on how to improve my writing skills as I am newly acquainted to writing songs. I am now in the midst of writing my second song but I will not be publishing it publicly on my blog for personal reasons.

On The Edge of Eternity's Cliff


For ages, you reached out to the heavens above and yet, you reek of utter ignorance and idiocy.
My skin crawls as I look into dead, pierced eyes.
You raped your Mother (Earth) and slayed your Brother (Cain) as your Father (Time) watches on.


You, the bastard of Humanity, sitting on the edge of Eternity's cliff.
Your unbearable stench drifts aimlessly through the Nine Worlds.


You don a crown of thorns and a rusted cross, jagged blade in hand.
My good man, your Christ is dead.
You, my friend, will soon join him.


You are your own living abomination.
And soon, you will bring about your own end.
Do not despair for I will always be here..
By your side..
Only to watch you perish..


You don a crown of thorns and a rusted cross, jagged blade in hand.
My good man, your Christ is dead.
You, my friend, will soon join him.


You will now slit your throat open.
Your blood will spill upon the pages of your diary.
You will fall over the edge of Eternity's cliff.
The neverending void of Oblivion awaits you.


You don a crown of thorns and a rusted cross, jagged blade in hand.
My good man, your Christ is dead.
You, my friend, will soon join him.


Amen, amen, amen.

Ep 52 - Cannibals, Cannibals Everywhere!

Almost all of have heard a spine-chilling story or two about a psychotic killer who finds that consuming the remains of his victims to be the most convenient way to dispose of their dead and lifeless bodies. It comes to no surprise that almost all of us would rile in disgust whenever we read of such gruesome murders. Most societies believe that the dead have to be treated with utmost respect and an attempt to willfully damage a corpse is frowned upon. However, there are a handful of societies in which cannibalism is a sanctioned norm. There are two types of cannibalistic behavior openly practiced in societies namely endocanniblism and exocannibalism. Both of the practices I have mentioned do not involve killing another human being for food which is known as homicidal cannibalism.

Endocannibalism

Endocannibalism is the practice of consuming a person from the same culture, tribe, or society. Endocannibals do not see the dead they consume as a source of food but instead, endocannibalism serves a spiritual purpose in these societies. In some societies, it is believed that the soul of the deceased is still contained in the dead body and thus, the separation of the soul from the body is ensured by consuming the deceased. Followers of the Aghori sect in India consume corpses found floating in the holy Ganges in hopes of gaining supernatural powers and immortality. Some indigenous Australian and Native American tribes consume the dead's flesh as a sign of respect for the dead. It is presumed that this is a sign of the dead person's esteem and worth in these societies. Other endocannibalistic beliefs include absorbing the positive characteristics of the deceased or the unison of the dead person's soul with those of his living descendants.

Exocannibalism

This form of cannibalism involves consuming the flesh of someone from another community. Exocannibals intend to symbolise one's dominion over his enemy in war while other endocannibals sacrifice members of rival tribes or groups in ceremonies and rituals and consume their rivals in hopes of absorbing their positive traits.

P.S. There are no points for guessing why this post could not have come at a more appropriate time.

Ep 51 - Rigidity & Injustice Go Hand In Hand

It has been a week since my weblog has had any updates at all and I would like to apologise for not doing so. I was in no mood to blog although interesting things have occurred over the past week. Most of you, my readers, have already internalised that rigidity and injustice have always gone hand in hand. I had a first hand experience of injustice and rigidity today when I was only ten minutes late for my Health Assessment lesson. I cannot deny that I have been warned during this module's first lesson about a week ago. And neither can I deny that I did all that I could to heed my lecturer's warning. I tried explaining to her that I had left home early today and that it was the bus that was late. Yes, it was a cliche indeed. But unlike other students who choose to blame this country's public transport system for their own lack of discipline, I was telling the truth. And worse, I was not even given the benefit of doubt by that old hag.

Leaving home at 7am is supposed to give me ample time to arrive early for a lesson scheduled at 8am. All I had to do, it seems, was to wait patiently for a bus to arrive and to bring me to closest MRT station and board the train to Yio Chu Kang. These days, road users have to put up with countless ERP gantries everywhere and sky-rocketing road tax prices but traffic jams are still common sight. And to make things worse, I had to sit through a lesson for two whole hours with a half empty stomach and still be marked as an absentee. I was expecting to be let off with a stern warning as this is my first time being late and to be frank, I missed nothing of significance to my education as a student nurse.